i could never hate you. or anyone.

After everything that I've been put through, and after everything I put you through, I could never hate you. Any of you. I've spent a lot of time thinking about my past and the people that are left there. I don't regret many of the people I left there and I don't hate anyone that left me there. We all change and move different directions in our lives, and just because you went somewhere else in life doesn't mean I have to hate you. I take back every "I hate you." that has come out of my mouth up until now. I hate what happened with what we had. I hate what you did, and I hate what I did. I've realized that I could never hate anyone. Everyone has their own struggles in life and it's selfish of me to ignore that and say that I hate someone. Why do we as people ignore the fact that people have their own problems? 

I forgive you. 

I forgive everyone.

I apologize to anyone that I ever said "I hate you." to or about. 

I'm using you as a general term and I'm not singling anyone out. I'm not referring to recent events or long-gone events in my life, but instead I'm referring to everything and everyone. I've reached a growing point in my life that I've realized that I have to be adult about things and stop being a teenager. I'm growing up and I love it. I'm not grown yet and I wasn't grown yesterday or the day before. However, I'm working on becoming the person I want to be for the rest of my life, and in my eyes that's beautiful. 

Here's to growing up and realizing that you can't win every battle. Here's to losing friends but keeping their footprints on your heart. Here's to forgiving and apologizing. and most of all... Here's to me becoming me. 

I'm sorry. I could never hate anyone ever again. 

Who are we to give someone another struggle?

College Professors and Finals

I am currently working on tons of work for finals while also dealing with a lot of people problems. I'd just like to say that nobody is worth your grade. Don't leave your work to go hang out or to talk to your "honey."
They aren't worth it. I promise.
Think about it, oh what's that? Thinking? Yeah it's this new thing they started. Anyways, you are going to be in school for 4 years to pursue a career that's a lifetime. I don't think any person is worth risking my career and quality of life for.
I understand you love people and that's fine.

FINALS
ARE
STRESSFUL
-study--study--study- I promise it's worth it.

I'd like to shout out to my college professor Bonnie Thrasher. She's a wonderful person and even though I have procrastinated beyond comprehension she is letting me turn in everything. Also, she sends me emails to check on me and make sure I'm getting stuff done. She's really wonderful. You will meet that one college professor who will always be there, and I'm pretty sure I met mine! Plus she's in my major department. Woo!
Anyways, I should be doing work right now.
back to BiSci Lab Reports.
peace :)

I've learned a lot.

Here's some things I've learned in college.
1. Don't trust a lot of people.
2. Money can buy happiness
3. Companionship is absolutely necessary to maintain a sound mind.
4. Some people are just naturally rude.
5. I don't know why, but these religious people always tell us to stray from our wicked ways.
6. I don't like people as much as I should.
7. Professors cuss a lot.
8. I miss my family.
9. Blogging takes up a lot of time.
10. Get an iPhone. It's so universal.
11. I don't feel like writing anymore.

a new me

I'd like to think that I am reinventing myself. Something I should have done before coming to college, but didn't have the ability to do. Therefore, now I will be who I feel I should be and look how I want to look.

I like how I look now, don't get me wrong, and I'm not getting like a boob job or something drastic. Just some minor changes. Things that I've always wanted, hair I've always wanted. You know.. That kind of thing. Pictures will come when I start. I will have before and after and whatnot if I feel like it. I probably won't. Anyways, now you're at the end of this pointless post and I'm sorry. 

Goodnight.

DIY totally doing it.

I'm totally doing it myself today! I'm making my old toms into SANDALS! I know that it's pretty cliche and what not, but I am super excited. Hopefully they turn out just like the picture below. Eeeep! I'll be sure and post pictures after I get them finished. 

Time

to

do

this!

I'm having the time of my life. Miss my mom.

College has seriously been an experience like no other. I've been having so much fun and making friends with everyone. Even the girl at Hot Topic today! She gave me the number to the best tattoo studio in Jonesboro. Super pumped to get my phoenix by the way. Pics when it happens (in a few months). The guy in the picture is my room mate, Dylan. Aka; coolest guy ever. The girl in the middle is Morgan, the way we met was quite interesting but she is super awesome and nice.

Back to college.

Everyone has been nothing but nice here to me. Not to mention I'm already treasurer of the astAte GSA. I've been given so many great opportunities. I'm going to a tri-Greek cook-out tomorrow and an ice cream social for the College of Communications (my home) on Saturday! I absolutely love ASU and the campus. Really though, I can't stop talking about how great of a time I have had. The biggest fall back is that I miss my family. My mom has always been my rock and not having her around is so hard. We have talked on the phone almost every day so that helps a little bit. Also, Kenneth, my best friend isn't here with me and it seriously makes me depressed. We hung out ALL summer. Ughhhh I'm so ready for my next trip back to Cabot/Bryant since I can no longer go this weekend. 

On another, more grim note... I cannot be in Wind Ensemble because of conflicts with my schedule. However, seeing that I did have the talent to make it this time, I'm hoping that I can use that same talent to make it next semester since I do have room in my class schedule. Marching Band has been super fun though! We are now on to cleaning our show and it is going to look so good! 

Well, I'm going to try to go to sleep now even though I only have two classes tomorrow. Peace! GO RED WOLVES!

I'm in college.

I don't know how many of you know it, but I'm in college now. It's going absolutely amazing. I miss my best friend a ton, but I know we will stay close. Especially seeing as how we have texted every day. I don't like my bed though, it makes scary noises and it's too small. Oh well. Yesterday I got called out in class for talking when the teacher was messing with her computer. I was whispering AND she wasn't talking. Oh welllllll. I've had an amazing first few days. I'm even considering rushing! Phi Mu Alpha! It's a music frat and the people are so nice. I'm making the journey to Cabot/Bryant this weekend. Oh, and to all my band kids, ASU has their first show and the opener memorized. Which to sum it up, means that we have two shows memorized. It's hardcore. OHMYGOSH, AND I MADE THE WIND SYMPHONY! It's the top band at ASU. Talk about unexpected. Anyways, I won't give my excessive amount of followers too much to read. Expect me to be pretty active on this by the way! At least once a week.