Goodbye old, hello new.

I hope everything that has happened is for the best. I know that my life is better off without certain people. I can't help but think about you every day, and know that someone else has you to call theirs. However, I really do hope that you treat him with the respect and love I always wanted, because I never got the boy that I asked for. You cheated on me, you lied to me, you hurt me, and most of all... You took me for granted. I knew someday you might be gone, and I knew what I had. 

I realize now that everyone already knew you before I did, so when they were approaching me and telling me that you were only going to hurt me, I should have listened. I didn't listen to the words of truth. Even those who I would not speak of today, told me things that were true. I hope that you found love in this new person that you acquired. You will never have my love in your life again, and I don't want your tainted love in mine either. You created a monster inside of me, and I've done so much to keep it in. 

I am an extremely jealous person because of you, and I do not have trust in ANYONE. This is not to hurt anyone, but I want to let everyone know that I had a boyfriend who treated me like I was just some boy he found on the side of the road. Yes he loved me, and yes he wanted me, but everything I gave him was never enough. I never did the right thing, and I never said the right words. My feelings were hurt on a daily basis.  I wish you knew how I have felt these last two years, because it felt like an eternity of punishment. 

I wish nothing bad upon you, even though I have every right to. I wish only the good things, like how I hope you give this boy everything that I always wanted out of you. Someday in your future though, you will remember who I am, and what I always did for you. Then.. Maybe. You will realize that I always had love for you and I offered you everything that I could. I wasn't enough.

I could never have been enough.

You never got enough.

I never felt like enough.

But now, I've had enough.