If it's hot...

There's a few things that have always stumped me, but the one that always gets me is why we are constantly going against the grain. What's so pleasing to us? Could it be the pleasure of satisfying curiosity? Chancing pain when we could stay content where we are. 

Our whole lives we are told not to smoke, do drugs or fall for those people. We are taught fire is hot, ice is cold and water is wet. The whole time we listen, but when the time comes we reach right into the flames. After being taught so many lessons we still seem to find pain. No matter what form we seek it out. Do we do these things simply because we can't stand to be stagnant? 

Eventually, however, we all learn the final lesson. I guess it's the straw that breaks the camels back. We finally realize that at some point we have to accept that curiosity and desire are frivolous. To satisfy one or the other could mean risking everything, and it may not always be worth it. Only if the outcome is guaranteed can you be for sure you'll make it out safely. 

My point is pretty simple; if it looks hot, then don't touch it. 

i could never hate you. or anyone.

After everything that I've been put through, and after everything I put you through, I could never hate you. Any of you. I've spent a lot of time thinking about my past and the people that are left there. I don't regret many of the people I left there and I don't hate anyone that left me there. We all change and move different directions in our lives, and just because you went somewhere else in life doesn't mean I have to hate you. I take back every "I hate you." that has come out of my mouth up until now. I hate what happened with what we had. I hate what you did, and I hate what I did. I've realized that I could never hate anyone. Everyone has their own struggles in life and it's selfish of me to ignore that and say that I hate someone. Why do we as people ignore the fact that people have their own problems? 

I forgive you. 

I forgive everyone.

I apologize to anyone that I ever said "I hate you." to or about. 

I'm using you as a general term and I'm not singling anyone out. I'm not referring to recent events or long-gone events in my life, but instead I'm referring to everything and everyone. I've reached a growing point in my life that I've realized that I have to be adult about things and stop being a teenager. I'm growing up and I love it. I'm not grown yet and I wasn't grown yesterday or the day before. However, I'm working on becoming the person I want to be for the rest of my life, and in my eyes that's beautiful. 

Here's to growing up and realizing that you can't win every battle. Here's to losing friends but keeping their footprints on your heart. Here's to forgiving and apologizing. and most of all... Here's to me becoming me. 

I'm sorry. I could never hate anyone ever again. 

Who are we to give someone another struggle?